“Mentally, it’s really draining and straining sometimes. “Going to this place with all these overly masculine rappers and you’re finna be in there throwing a little ass every now and then, touching on dudes and hugging them and kissing them… at some points, I was like, ‘Should I even do this? I don’t feel like they’re going to love me like that,’” he revealed, adding the experience was like “jumping in a lake full of sharks and piranhas.” The star admitted he wasn’t sure how his same-sex kiss would be perceived because he sometimes feels like he doesn’t fit in with other rappers. Lil Nas X's quotes about being an openly gay Black rapper explain why he was so nervous leading up to the big moment. While it may have looked like the rapper was nothing but confident on stage, he told the publication that that wasn’t actually the case behind the scenes. 3 interview with Out magazine, Lil Nas X opened up about his performance at the 2021 BET Awards, which included a steamy kiss with one of his male backup dancers.
